I noticed all the reviews on here for this film are all positive and I am thoroughly confused by that. I am not a BL regular so perhaps it was a mistake of me to come here almost directly after watching History3: Trapped (of which I recommend 100% more than whatever this is). I have a habit of rambling about things that I dislike so bare with me.

First, the pacing of this movie is terrible. It moves on so quickly from point to point that I didn't feel like I could develop a connection with the characters or really understand their relationship and why they would ever want to date each other. I am still confused by this even after finishing it, they look like they hate each other the whole way through. Despite this, the run time is over 3 hours long !! a total waste of time, i know it is the uncut version but I sincerely wish the director would think critically about which scenes they could discard to make the runtime bearable. Any kiss scene immediately faded to black after lip contact, it was just really weird? Felt like I was being edged, aren't the explicit scenes the only plus to this movie? Any plot points were almost immediately resolved in the next couple of scenes, the family drama about coming out that this film continuously gets praised for feels so underdeveloped and inconsequential.

Second, the explicit scenes themselves are so creepy to watch. I cannot comment on the second one because i skipped past it, but the first one was lit so darkly, Maiding was drunk during it, and the music was super creepy - it felt more in place in a horror movie !! I know Maiding said he wanted to have sex with him but genuinely, the way the movie framed that sex scene it really felt like rape. So uncomfortable.

TL/DR If this is your first time watching BL, please I am begging you watch something else. Maiding is unfunny and misogynistic, and his persistent pursuit of Ziyan is creepy and off-putting.