The first three episodes were one of the wildest rides of a drama I've ever experienced. But that's all I made it through.

It started as a weird but funny, then got just weird, then got creepy...and then creepier. Basically starts by saying they dated in middle school, he drops that he hasn't had an erection in two years but got one when he hugged her and wants to sleep in the bed with her to get a morning stiffy, then it flashbacks and basically he SAed her. Like, they were dating, she felt he didn't care because he was kind of emotionless. They went to his house and she asked if he wanted to kiss her and he basically did then pushed her down on the bed and they had sex. And she doesn't say it was r*pe or SA but she also didn't consent and describes it basically that she didn't resist him because she was so surprised and felt she didn't even understand what was happening. After, he immediately got up and told her she should go home. She felt small, stupid, and embarrassed and also kind of afraid of him so she avoided him after that. It is also what caused her to completely lose confidence in herself and withdraw from social life.

And that's the romantic lead apparently.

Anyway, she I guess doesn't hold a grudge as he keeps basically emotionally blackmailing her into sleeping in bed with him like his life might end because he can't get an erection. He even describes himself as a corpse. I have no sympathy for him. But she did. And then the final straw that had me stop watching is when he was lying behind her and accidentally came on her back and was just like "oops". Like nope. She didn't consent to that. And frankly, if he wasn't pulling such a dramatic "woe is me, I can't write without a boner, and if I can't write, I will lose my job and my livelihood and my life will be over and only you can help me get it up and save my life" as he dramatically sulks about lying on the floor and the stairs, she wouldn't have agreed. Like sorry you can't get it up, but that's not her fault or her responsibility. See a doctor. Get therapy. Leave her alone.

I have no doubt he will get some kind of redemption arc. But I don't care. His actions derailed her life, whether he meant them to or not. And it shouldn't take a chance encounter with the person who hurt her in the first place, to "fix" her. And I just feel like that's where this is going to go.