Eu Não (2021)

Its like a dumpster fire, a little bit of arson, pretty to look at but there is garbage involved

Alright, this one is a doozy, the premise: a squad of gays fighting corruption in the Thai law and police force, fucking amazing, so exciting. Less great, the MC, white, the most irritating piece of shit you've ever met, the actor who plays him does fine with playing Black so its clearly a character problem. The whole romance with Sean and White felt so left field, I thought white would be more likely to try eat lava than fuck Sean but here we are. And here I am watching ep 12 and white fucking kissing Sean with very clearly no consent (so sexually assaulting him). Also, Yok and Dan, loved that idea. Yok is fucking hilarious, I love him, I love the inclusion of deaf person into the narrative re: his mom, and Dan, as UNAR is iconic, love me some graffiti criticizing the government, but Dan as Dan *vomiting emoji* not only is his personality akin to that of a white break crust, he is also supposed to be one of the "good" cops which is not what you want to see in a series critiquing the police force. And then there is Eugene and Gram (RIP all the GramBlack supporters). It just makes me feel sorry for Eugene, like the woman is still recovering from dealing with the heartbreak from WhiteasBlack and Gram decides now is the time to shoot his shot, he unsurprisingly gets rejected and keeps fucking trying. Also, wtf is Grams's deal, like why is he there, do we know? All I know is I absolutely hated how domineering he was in ep 12, bitch didn't allow Eugene to have agency at all. Red Flags all the way. And then there is poor Gumpa who is being used and abused as nothing but a plot device. Why does this man just adopt random kids and train them like he was a military guy? why is he teaching basically children to fire a gun? Who's to say?

Overall, was it good? sure if you don't mind skipping the endless amount of SeanWhite shoved in your face constantly.
Now I know what you're thinking, Epsilon what did you expect. For one, something like manner of death, you know, where the romance and the plotline co-exist, instead of the romance undermining the plot, and second, a less irritating protagonist, like I'm sorry but Off and Gun felt more like to be Santa's elves at your local shopping mall than human rights activists. Like everyone else fits except those two. Also, I would have loved to see a woman in their squad, like Namo would have been an excellent fit and it would uplit her character to more than "person with a crush on Sean".

It's okay, but it's not over yet, hopefully, it will only get better

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NOT ME IS A MUST WATCH!!!!

I remember seeing this show on hitv and just randomly decided to watch it. This was also when I was kind of still in my bl newbie phase. I ended up dropping anything I had to do and binged watched it in less than 48 hours and even though I was very exhausted by the end and really sad of finishing the show IT WAS AN AMAZING WATCH!!! Almost everything about this bl makes it such an enjoyable watch. Good acting, interesting story, and nice OST music. My only ick is how quickly yok aka first character just so easily forgave Dan aka Gawin's character it was just a tab bit annoying, but I still love this show! I also had a s**t ton of ghost ships and I'm sad knowing the fact that some of them never became a real thing. It was really fun trying to figure out who was the one who put Black's character in a coma (even though that person was my main guess). But I did have to rewatch this show cause i forgot sum things senice I binged it so defenly if you're going to watch this show don't do what i did. ANYWAYS I RECOMMEND NOT ME TO EVERYONE :))

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Great series!

I really love this series. Gun's acting was remarkable. I have a couple of complaints though.
First, Gram annoyed the hell out of me, like I get Black didn't treat Gene that great but come on dude, he's supposedly your friend. Idk, that just annoyed me.
Second, there's unanswered questions. Like when White was acting as Black, their dad didn't question where he went? Black fought those officers at the hospital but received no punishment, or he never got caught? Lastly, they all had classes but hardly attended?
Honestly, I would like a second season to see what everyone done after the last mission, like what was Black going to do? Also, would have loved more interactions with Dan and Yok. (I love FirstKhao but I still wanted moren🫣)
Overall, even with my complaints it's a great series, I would rewatch it!

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Who got over it??? Definitely NOT ME

Oh how i love this drama it contains everything the story, the action, the romance, the drama everything in it completes each other, it will always have a special place in my heart…
the story of the twins having a powerful connection was very interesting to me… and about the other part of the story it’s good not very unique, but i enjoyed it. such an amazing acting especially from gun, it amazed every time i see how well he acted the twins he is such a great actor, his acting made me wanna watch more works from him. Anyways if you’re seeing this it’s definitely a watch worthy…

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Freedom is the oxygen of the soul

Not me has to be one of the best Thai BLs I’ve ever watched. I’ve seen the praise for it for months, so I came in with high expectations and I can tell you I was NOT disappointed.

STORY/PLOT : 7.5/10
The premise of this show was interesting from start to end, you could really tell the writers/directors put a lot of thought and purpose into it. The balance between action, mystery, social commentary, and romance was handled well for the most part and you don’t see that in a lot of BLs. The only gripe I have with this would be the pacing and a few plot holes. The first few episodes were pretty slow and more than once it felt a little too convoluted, but after I’d say, episode 6 or so, the pace really picked up and things definitely got a lot more interesting. Also, the ending.. I was happy with it because who doesn’t like a hopeful ending? But it was bit too quick or..easy for me, I guess. It really just left things to be desired.

CHARACTERS: 9.5/10
Each character was charming in their own way. I don’t think there was a character on screen that I wasn’t completely engaged in. Really liked how the female characters had goals and passions and were just overall PEOPLE and not one dimensional objects to help push the m/m romance along. Not only romance, but the friendships in this show were so refreshing, I will always love a good found family trope. Some characters weren’t as developed as I’d liked by the end, but I’d blame that on just not having enough time to flesh everyone out.

ROMANCE: 10/10
Sean and White’s build up to romance was refreshingly gradual and very cute to see. Seeing a couple just exist unapologetically queer, clear consent, and healthily developed was such a breath of fresh air and I loved every second of it. My favorite couple of this series though, has to go to Yok and Dan. The scene where they first arrived at Dan’s hide out and Yok was sketching him honestly made me tear up a little and solidified their chemistry and romance for me. The inevitable betrayal hurt so good and the forgiveness in the end, a promise to help pick up the pieces lost and hopefully build them back stronger, was beautiful to watch.

ACTING/CAST: 10/10
Gun (White/Black) has done it again. Absolutely phenomenal acting especially with such a difficult task of playing 2 different characters. The way you could clearly see the contrast between White and Black just goes to show how much work and effort he put into this role. I loved Off (Sean) in this role, I’m telling you, it felt like it came so naturally to him. Every facial expression and longing glance, you could tell he really embodied this character. First (Yok), Mond (Gram), Papang (Gumpa), and Fluke (Dan), all deserve their flowers too, not one character felt one dimensional or awkward, they all each had their own personality, faults, and goals, and it was really great to see.

MUSIC: 10/10
Loved it. Music can make or break a scene and ruin immersion but the way this team utilized it had me hooked and really did add to the tone of the episodes. Also appreciated the fact that they didn’t use any comedic sound effects in this show, definitely helped with the mature angle they went for.

PRODUCTION/CINEMATOGRAPHY: 10/10
Holy. Shit. I can say this with 100% certainty, I have never seen a BL look this good. I don’t know how many times I was just staring at my screen in awe, replaying a scene over and over because of how damn good it looked. Everything from the camera work, to the locations, to the clothing, to the lighting had a purpose to help tell this story and god damn did it work. The details they put into this production was absolutely jaw dropping.

OVERALL/TLDR: 9.5/10
This show is more than a BL. It’s a story of pain, heartbreak, social justice, corruption, but most of all hope. I will never stop recommending this. The shots were breathtaking, the characters felt real, the story was engaging, and it definitely surpassed any expectations I had going into it! ♡

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Punk rock poetry in a boys' love dream.

Motorcycles, street art, social justice, rooftops, parkour, strong women, LGBTQ+ pride, and boys’ love…what more could you ask for? All my favorite things aside XD, this show is exceptionally well made in many ways. Great writing, engaging story, beautifully filmed, nuanced acting. So fulfilling, and I'm not even talking about the soy milk :D

I wasn't sure what I was expecting with this show, but it definitely wasn't to find a masterpiece of queer cinema. Most of the other BLs I've watched, even though highly recommended, are not really about queer issues. Not Me is a queer punk rock revolution, celebrating equality and fighting for social justice. Like in the rooftop scene about fear and bravery, Anucha Boonyawatana teaches us how to be brave enough to speak out, and that your voice matters.

Visually, this series is like poetry. The close-ups are raw and realistic—you can feel the detail and subtleties in the actors’ skin. The scenes are allowed to play out naturally—this was the first drama where I felt the arc leading to the first kiss was well built. The flag march, simply holding hands, then sharing secrets in White's room, then the rooftop. In that rooftop kiss, they put out the sun between their lips…and hug—it’s so simple, that new love embrace that everyone has felt, but no director has managed to capture quite so authentically.

The chemistry between the actors playing Sean and White feels unbelievably real. The love scene left me in tears. The sweetness and passion between them is so moving. Seeing the two lovers model communication and respect for each other was truly special. The ear tug, the button, the love of detail and honesty is what makes this story so memorable.

And the turning point, when Sean meets Black for the first time left me speechless. Not realizing they are twins, Sean in a way must feel he is with an abusive partner that seems to switch personalities. Black/White are like two sides of the same person battling themselves, and it's the person closest to them that ends up getting hurt. Although this last interpretation is a deeply personal one, it brings up trauma in a cathartic way.

To me, one of the most important questions the director raises in this work is whether or not a person is capable of change. "Someone who always goes with the flow cannot go against the current." Sean says this, and White responds saying that people are capable of change, otherwise we'd still be living in caves. This, along with the idea that bravery cannot exist without fear, are powerful tools for self-acceptance and growth.

For me, this show was healing. This is one of those rare times when I want to hold a story close to my heart and also share it with everyone. Only a good work of art can do that—that’s what Not Me is. It's a poetic love letter to queer artists and activists overcoming trauma. Their happy ending is what this community needs.

Anucha, you are my soul friend! Thank you to the actors, the director, and writers for this beautiful and inspiring dream.

P.S.
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Unbelievably good series

Words can’t describe enough my love for this series, i’ve watched a lot of BLs, good ones, with some of the same actors as in Not me, but none of them made me feel this suffering, pressure, hurting, the most sincere love and character development..all being acted in the purest and most natural way, that no series did, it really is an unforgettable experience..Thank you production team for this masterpiece, and to the actors i found out about, and will further follow their career growth, supporting them. I sincerely recommend it to all kind of viewers, who are at least okay with LGBTQ+ relationships, to view this series, because it doesn’t only involve love confessions with some drama, it’s about life and the will to live, inspiring you to change your mindset and be braver, live life at fullest, be happy and stay by the side of people whom you love, accept their love, accept the world as it is, accept yourself as who you are.

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We are all grey, a mix of white and black

Where to even start? This series delivered in all sorts of ways. I absolutely loved the imagery, the production, and the OST of the series. The imagery is extremely powerful throughout the series, through what is said, what is done and through the characters themselves.

The series addresses a plethora of different social injustices and problems. And while it might primarily focus on Thailand and its problems, it can be easily translated into the culture and system of almost any other country around the world. Rich and powerful people are often above the law or are exempt from it, how unfairly disabled people are treated in the society, the problems of homophobia and marriage inequality, the sexism… and I could go on and on. I think it delivered so many important messages. It made a statement. It also showed that people have power, but only if they stand together.

The characters were extremely complex. I feel like most of the repeating characters were extremely well developed. They weren’t just there to take up some screentime, they were there to drive the plotline and to tell their stories. All of the actors did an amazing job portraying their characters.

Black and White – I think even their names are symbolic. One is supposed to be bad while the other is supposed to be good. But the fact is, once White starts to live Black’s life, we are shown the truth. No one is just good or just bad, there is a bit of both in each of us. We are all grey, a mix of white and black. White struggled a lot to live his brother’s life, but it also taught him a lot. Something that stuck with me is that he recognized himself as part of the problem, part of that society with connections. I think we were able to see a lot of changes in his mindset. I am a bit disappointed that Black’s story is not developed more, especially with regards to what happens after. He might be shown as cold and unforgiving, but in reality, he loves his brother deeply, cares for his ex-girlfriend and would die for his friends. There was just so much more potential for developing his story further. Gun outdid himself by playing the twins. The two characters are so different, but he was able to portray each of them so clearly. You can tell exactly which twin it is just by looking at his eyes which is incredible.

Sean – he is mostly driven by hate, thirst for revenge. He is willing to risk everything, including his life to see his agenda through. But throughout the series, we get to see him open to those around him. We see him realize that causing harm to others might not be the best way to go about achieving his revenge. He might not have any family left, but he found a family at the garage. They all did, in one way or the other. And him falling for White while battling with his need to bring Tawi down, was pulled off incredibly well. Off was brilliant in his role, he really excelled in showing the emotions, the struggle of Sean.

Yok – giving First this bad boy kind of role was a smart decision. He really pulled it off well. His story is very well written. I love how he wishes to do more for the disabled people, especially after seeing how much his mom struggles with keeping a job. He does seem very impulsive at times, very bold, but with what the boys are doing, risking their lives, it seems very fitting. He doesn’t know when he might die, so he tries to make the best of the time that is given to him. He does teach us a lot about forgiveness.

Dan / UNAR – he was an interesting character. Once his identity was revealed, I knew what the plot twist would be. But there were still things that surprised me about him. It is obvious that he is carrying a lot of guilt within him, as well as resentment towards the injustices that he cannot help, change. There are a lot of inner struggles that he needs to cross. Choices that he needs to make. Hard ones. Ones that will affect people he loves, one way or the other.

Gram – can I start by saying that the silver hair looks so damn good on Mond? It really was an iconic look. He is probably one of the most supportive friends one could wish for. Not only that, but when he loves someone, he loves them fully. He is willing to let that person go if they are happy with someone else. He is very quick witted, and I love his relationship with Nunch. The two don’t really see eye to eye on many things, but they are still friends.

Let’s talk about the girls – Nunch, Namo and Eugene. Nunch is trans, something that is mentioned a few times in the series. I absolutely love the fact that she didn’t become a comic relief character. She was strong-willed and smart, outspoken, and there for her friends. Both Namo and Eugene got their hearts broken, but neither of them let that bring her down completely. They each grieved in their own way, but they both overcame that and moved on. The fact that the two had a story that went beyond just being a pretty girl in love with one of the main guys, is something I really liked.

Gumpa – he felt like a big brother, almost like a father figure to the boys. He was always there to help when they needed it. He always took care of them, he trained them and made sure they were ready to undertake all of their missions. He is smart, he can see through them quickly. I think his behavior really shows that. He knows when they need support, when they need a buffer and when they need a kick in the butt. Sadly, his story is not really developed much. I feel like he would be an interesting character to get to know better.

Todd – he is another character whose backstory was not really developed enough. The plot twist relating to him was not that surprising, his motives were though. But again, they were really not explained enough. I do like his relationship with the twins, especially Black, no matter how complex and difficult it seems to be. It’s obvious that the two care for each other, whether that is romantic or not, we might never know.

Overall, it was a good series that addressed a lot of incredibly important topics. My only complaint is that there are quite a few loose ends and lack of backstory for certain characters that makes it a bit hard to understand them and their actions.

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